Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements? Even if it leads nowhere, or would it be a waste? Even if I knew my place should I leave it there? – “Chasing Pavements,” Adele
I wrote this one night after an encounter with Farm Girl, Poly Girl, and The Ex all on the same day. I sent it to Farm Girl, as she is a poet. I wanted her to like it. She said she likes my prose better. More importantly, I wanted her to get that I was, in the deepest recesses of my conscious mind, choosing her.
I don’t think she did.
“Three In One Day”
At morning light…
Quick glances find me here again. Sleep survived.
Unsure the meaning of bodies revived.
You fill my mind. Quickly, a smile.
Close eyes again to daydream a while…
The flicker of hope, whether trusted or not
Gives direction. Inspiration. Where has this been?
Where have you been?
Just say something. Anything to ease this want.
The sun above…
She hits me in the dark. Out of nowhere
With words and accusations of unfair
The kid. The pictures. The car.
I gave that girl my heart, my future. She knows me, right?
She knows I did the best thing, right?
She should. She broke me. Stop pushing so hard.
Sun is setting…
I talk to her through thoughts and doubt
About what’s best. Where to go. How to figure things out.
Look back. Look forward.
Her voice says try again. Will her thoughts about me die?