Wounded

The guy who put his hands on you has got nothing to do with me. And the bruises that you feel will heal and I hope you’ll come around. Cause we’re missing you.- “Wounded,” Third Eye Blind

I’m not 100% sure why I can’t get The Sister out of my head. But I’m fairly certain she’s not interested in me. Sure, we’re back to one of those points where we communicate daily basically, whether that’s through Facebook, Snapchat, a quick text message or whatever. But it never turns into anything. We flirt, try to help each other through whatever issue the other one is going through, then go silent for weeks or months.

She was one of the first people to show interest in me after I lost all my weight, which didn’t surprise me. I thought for sure the only reason she wasn’t interested in me last year was because of my weight. Turns out she isn’t really interested in anyone…

The Sister has a four-year old girl, who was a complete surprise to her. She was dating a guy, had sex with him once, and boom; pregnant. So, needless to say, sex isn’t really her top priority… Even though I’ve attempted to explain the many ways I wouldn’t be able to get her pregnant, she still doesn’t seem interested in even messing around.

She doesn’t seem interested in much when it comes to me. Most of the time, anyway. And yet I just can’t shake her.

Well I never claimed to understand what happens after dark. But my fingers catch the sparks at the thought of touching you.

I have forced distance between us to try and shake her. I’ve been mean to her and pushed her away. I’ve not responded to messages and given short answers to texts. I quit inviting her to get togethers. But for whatever reason I just can’t let her go. And she seems to be in the same boat. She keeps coming back, keeps acting interested, keeps talking. I don’t get it. I don’t get her. And I definitely don’t get me and why I keep putting myself in this position.

Gotta go. She just sent me a text.

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